HUGE BINGE

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 15:41:27 GMT

a few days ago i had one of the biggest biinges ive ever had. and it was in front of my friends.it all happened in less than an hour. i ate 3/4 of a Crunchie bar, a bag of cheezies, a jam filled donut, and 15 tim bits (which are basically donut holes). i serioulsy want to die. ive been eating really bad all week. i have my period, but im trying not to use that as an excuse anymore. i need to lose 12 lbs ASAP.

also, i havent cut myself for a few months, which is a HUGE thing for me and im really proud, but im gigantic and i cant find my workout dvd that works me the most and now i might cut because of it. i deserve to be in pain. after eating all this crap this week, i see that i obviously cant do anthing right. anyways, hopefully i find my dvd and dont sh.

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 07:44:23 GMT

that boy that i kinda had a date with(im not classifying it as one, but everyone else does) well, like ive said, im not really sure thaat i like him.. then tonight one of my "hot friends", who hits on me lots, asked me to come to his house. so i did. even tho i was kinda expecting us to fool around. well. we did for like an hour and a bit. im gonna put the funny details in white if you wanna read them... might not be good for you youngins!! hahahaha i feel kinda bad now tho... its not like me and the other guy even did anyhting.. we played ps2...

ok. so i went to my friends house. and he sat down. and i sat on the other couch. i didnt want him to think i wanted to do stuff with him & i defnatel wasnt gonna make the 1st move if we were! so we talked, watched some tv, then he came and sat by me. and we both decided we were bored. he was supposed to have the house to himself til tomorrow night.. but then suddenly his parents came home.. and he just said "lets go downstairs." which is where his bedroom is. so we went to his room and i layed down on his bed. we talked a bit. then he started touching my ass and stuff and i was like w/e. then we started making out and he was fingering me and shit. and he got SOOOOOO hard OMG. (now i know forsure he has a huge dick!) and he started humping me basically. almost like he was trying to have sex with me, even though my pants were on. i told him my 2 rules. 1:no eating me out! 2: no sex! he was pretty sad about that. he said to at least let him eat me out. i was like NOPE!:) hahaha o and apparently i "have the best pussy he's ever felt, even though its tight!!" AHAHAHAHAH o boy. i cant believe i did this. people CANT find out. but they will. fuck im scaared. o well! it was fun! and i made sure the lights were off. i REFUSE to be touched if theyre on. nobody gets to see my gross body. o also... my stomach was gurgling the whole time. i didnt really eat today. i was forced a bit.. but everyone was too busy to notice i didnt have breakfast or lunch. at supper i said my tooth was hurting me. which it is!
this is long sorry

should i feel guilty?? i dont think im gonna date the other guy forsure anyways... but i think this one is just using me..

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 02:21:49 GMT

friends only!!

comment if you wanna be my friend!

:)

Is it all a waste of time?

HUGE BINGE